since i dont respect my own mother and father i cant seem to imagine a caring mother and a providing father in someone else life, and hence i dont mind disrespecting them . i mean i dont hesitate to disrespect gf or friends parents . cause i never seen one and even if i see i cant seem to accept it
plus now i just cant seem to take their shit any more. i kinda get so angry , like i think of killing her when she start to imagine things and everyone is coming after us, plotting against us , and when she thinks that her thoughts are not just thoughts instead they are reality . she thinks(possibility of thing) what she thinks is the reality. and the father , he wants us dead, starving us, cutting from basic needs , but no decrease in ego and comfort, here i think why use ceiling fan when u already using desert cooler but he is a mother fucker, wasting here and there and cuts from basic needs just to get comfort of his comfort, cooler is for his comfort dont forget that cause one i placed that cooler inside the tiny shiity room that he build and the cooler air was not reaching him , he started acting like some mother fucker woman , instead of saying anything he goes silent and wants to play authority when he cleary knows he has none, he wants to play as the provider, the head, the authority when he knows he is depended on me , on his son .same son whose clg fee never managed to collect. and i have to work like tution and other stuff to earn that, and u know what it cost me , it cost me my time, and when u try to get some fucking validation they both gives u a fuking mid finger. saying u did no favour my collecting clg fee, it was for your own good not for them. and thats when i decided if all my work is for my own good then lets play u wana play lets play no more favours, no more being nice, no more sacrifices , no more u above me , now everything is for my own goddam benefit, now i hide what amount of money i got, i hide that my sis got scholarship and using that money to pay her clg fee while also taking money from father, they wana play then lets play. they keep forgetting that im better than both of them combined , emotions dont get in my way, i have no morals , all i know is survive. i have survived shit where mom broke and gone paranoia i have survived poverty and horded money to support myself and build and get a clg degree that i always wanted . they keep forgetting im droid85. im droid, the droid not flinch, dont get emotional, dont break under pressure, it performs under chaos, the chaos is his fuking home, thats where he born, thats where he came into existance.
like the wheat and rice both dont taste good. what am i suppose to do, buy food as well? pay for gas bill? and pay for clg , then what he is for ? should i kill him ? cause i see no point of him being alive
bruh i have no earning, all i have is savings
yeh , i was kinda too angry, but anyways i hate both of them
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