it was too much too much for me yeh i agree now. as i get glimpse of memory back . cause tomorrow is exam. yeh it was too much first mom get sick shifting room from tent to jhalwa only to return back to tent and then when mom get ok we shift again to transport nagar in that time tent was gone. and then sis got sick we moved back to grandma house but this time we dont even had tent. so we shifted with moms brother room and uncle shifted in kitchen . then mom again tried shifting to make shift room next to kitchen i teared up i suggest i pay for rent lets move momm said spend money carefully all we got is your savings and in that makeshift room too much mosquitoes my sis covered herself in mosquito net she was sick at that time even then tried to cheer up by smiling , her smile made me tear up that even on death bed and paraplegic she trying to cheer up . after that uncle came and seeing this mom cried uncle said go back to room we shifted to uncle room again.
even when the first time i tried to shift dad resisted bcz again who gonna pay i said i then he kinda got aggreed and even then it took 3 days of packing and on 3rd day i break cause dad not able to find room and didnt brought anyone to any vehicle to carry stuff and transport i worked my ass of even sis worked mom worked this was the time when mom was paranoid totally lost touch with reality . on that 3rd day during winter in the dark evening it was cold but i got so worked up and i cried so much that even tears stopped and i got so heated up that i was in single shirt on first floor under open sky outside tent i worked up so much that i even sweated up.
but we shifted to jhalwa first few days are ok (2days) on 3rd day mom lost touch with reality again she spend 3-4h sitting in gallery looking outside refused to enter and leave gallery contacted uncle he came and took mom i shifted agian this time i took all stuff and i think i viisted jhalwa 2-3 times to bring all stuff i was in pain then got home talked with uncle took money to buuy meds gone to buy meds to 1km again almost. then mom said something more work i guess i said ok i do it then grandma look at mom said is your child not human does he not get tired mom lost touch with reality took that answer as offence and said u do it i said i do it . it hurted like hell whole body hurted i felt cold in spine not bcz outside cold because i felt cold internally from spine body overworked i guess hyper active mode and brain kinda desync with body cause body ached like hell and brain cant rest gone in idk numb mode or berserk.
it was time of covid and both the gov hospital sending us here and there for mri refusing to give mri at last we said they asking for few covid test and after this they refused then we go private its better in private what it going to cost more money but we cant take more risk of sister i talked with mom mom agreed at that time mom was ok.
my memories are jumbled im not sure what happened when its jumbled .
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