but then one day they got caught . got punished but not both equally. but in different way . she got blamed i guess . and even then they sometimes continue sometimes she pretends to sleep and they involve in activity and sometimes she gets mad and it continued like this
years later when things got ok and things start to change for good they got shelter their home and he got into engineering clg he did same during exam she got mad stopped talking . a month pass by he is drowning in guilt cause he seen her chat with llm calling him predator its that first time he realised he is a monster it was never allowed she just .......... he came to realisation. after exam he talked apologised and cried and she said nothing she said u trying to self-soothe. he got more broke but at least she is talking to him now that moment she looked so good cute beautiful . actually he does not understand warmth and lust sextual thing for him they both same does not know when one ends and when other start. if any girl ever try to give warmth then surely it will turn into sextual stuff for him.
but what if she forgives him but the truth is even if she did he cant he cant unless she start to heal unless she get better unlesss she gets the life . believe it or not his love for her is both care and lust . he cares too much . but he is attracted to her as well why? cause she is the only one who gone through same past , she knows him she sees him even though she has no understanding of him but she sees him who he is a crybaby, scared , week person.
does she hate him? answer will be any sane person will but she hate and care too its complex
He is not waiting for her to heal. He is waiting for her to give him permission to heal.
but he cant he cant he cant start without her . first she have to then only he can begin his journey cause its the core of the guilt that he ruined her and no matter how many therapy and whatever he tries nothing can fix unless she gets healed
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