u say im hypervigilance but then there are moments when i dont understand anything like i dont understand myself and other , like why would they do it check memory
i guess that happens real quick like boot then bluescreen crash . like cpu thrashing
like it goes on and on and on untill it drains all the battery . like any bad situation and like fight or argument then reloop all scene play animate them give dialog create multiple timelines and keep on loop for hours like 3-4 hours even days
wtf is this how rare is this
22-11-2025
i get stuck in loop if something goes wrong like any bad experience i play it on loop like its been 20min or maybe 40mins
like a watchman refused entry to hostel i have gone to see my friend and in that whole situation i seen one thing he quickly switched between playing as authority saying outsider is not allowed and go away or else i beat u and your frined too and then quickly switched playing victim (when higher people come) saying i talked to him rudely (not sure i might have appeared like talking rudely or ,maybe not) i just stuck in loop now
i dont get it . first time i have seen this kind of attitute from low pay watchman , and its not his gov job either its private . and eww what a man
im in loop its been 1h
is this fight flight
but a part of ,me wants to feel the humiliation
even this time my react was not much but i didnt defended that i wasnt talking to him i was on phone
and that part where he said i beat u its because im week otherwise things might have been different . being aware sucks
i told u i was aware thats why i never talked never justified to him cause he didnt deserve it.
btw one part is still unresolved why i run into these or im the one who get stuck
yeh why wtf is this it drained a lot of energy , it casued fight flight an loop of analysis of 2h and wtf im tryna do
its been hours , like 2+ h and still not over it like few fraction flashes and brain get diverted how can this be normal i dont think it is normal either im hyper sensitive or idk
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