but does she ever sit back and think that a lot alot happened and my child didnt reacted like child but instead reacted like adult a mature adult he grew up so fast and does this ever made her think that i was never a kid . does she ever noticed that if a person reacted very differently than the normal person there is something off. i wonder anyone would ever notice that .
but i also wonder that even any other person any other person will ever notice that cause i havent seen anyone . only sis once said that u pretend to be strong but inside u r a cry baby
yeh now they see me now they see that performance and the mask and the scared person who is always worried about how they see me how they judge me .
btw at the lowest point my gf was there but something was off. she kept saying that everything will get fine and something like that when mom became schizo.. she was trying to console i guess but i think i rejected that i mean she talking emotionally and i was talking logically there was mismatch in frequency and then things took turn i start to loose interest in her all we had that time was sex thats it and i came to realisation that unlike other people who want to share and emotional regulate i want solution not the emotional regulation part so i can to conclusion i dont need anyone for that emotional regulation part im fine and all i need is person who can give solution not console.
i see no wonder other people have .....going around saying im insensitive and from my pov they r just dumb and out sourcing emotional regulation lol
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