my eyes are red from just watching that scene from grave of fireflies , that scene made me breath like im drowning and i just dont know i was choking breathing and just cried like hell but very lil tear i waass whoile time was like..... remembering my sis that she was only 20kg around weighted like thin paper and yet ocasionally smile to comfort others just like seiko at her last moment telling brother that the stone is rice balls ............ after that i was like why why i have to go through all shit whyy why why why why why why why w hy why wh wyhywhyhwhyhwhyhywhyh wyhwyh whwyhwyhw hwy hwyhwh wh whyw hwyhwyh wh whwyhwy hwyh wyhwy hwyhwyhw hwyhwh whwyh whyhwyhw yhwyhwyhyhwyhywyh
but people didnt helped me too and i barely made it
why they dont are they all poor?
yeh but when i first given that sciho medicine paper to cousin who is also work in medine field and they didnt said anything like anything like nothing
and at his wedding he stared at me like angrily when i greated him namaste idk why maybe cause mom was late on his wedding i thought that he looks like that but no then later when i seen him smile with her wife on stage i was stunned he was actually angry earlier ,and we are obliged to visit cuase their mom visited and brought sari and pants for father and mom also . he helped me by assisting during sis sickness by visiting doc with another uncle (mom bro) who helped but then he also leaves the decision to wheather we opt for operation or not for my sister and of all adults i was choosen to take that decisiion. and this cousin's sister is also kinda u know treated me like nothing when i greated her and later asked for water bottle then she refused saying she just filled water bottle and placed in fridge idk, she said it with smile and beta as well but felt like u know mockery i simply didnt drink water at her house then i went to shop to buy water bottle i just idk maybe she said jokingly but i cant shake it off
that cousin mother visited paternal grandama house that same place we lived in tent on above but never visited us. and btw why the fuk i even expect them and why tf they would
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